I'm just going to start here with monday night.
After working all day and now am exhausted and nauseous, my day was not complete and I had a huge list of things I needed to get accomplished before bed. From not feeling well, our credit card getting hacked, exhaustion, and lets just say husbands in general, I was beyond done! I could not handle anymore. This sickness this time around is killing me. And when I don't feel well and have a huge list that needs accomplished, I sometimes lose it. So monday night I lost it.
I'm still coming to terms with this pregnancy. I understand some people are like "what is your deal? Your pregnant. Like so what. Be happy". I do take that into consideration when I'm complaining. I know there are people out there that struggle with getting pregnant and would love to be me and be having their second child. I just didn't think this was for me. I never really dreamed that when I would grow up I would want to be a mom and do this and that with my kids. I was just like ummm, yeah, I think I would like a kid or so 1 day? Well that day came and we had Asher. I thought he was enough and that my heart could not love the same to another tiny human. Along with tons of other scary thoughts about being pregnant again, delivery, raising 2 children, and the list goes on. Well this sickness really gets to me and can make me extremely angry!
Adam and I went to bed monday night without saying a word. I sat in Asher's room while he slept just looking at how perfect he is. How I never want him to think I don't love him. How selfish I am for not embracing this pregnancy. How I let this sickness take over my thought process.
Tuesday morning. Ugh mornings. I was able to function which was a plus because we had our first ultrasound to get to. I was still in a negative mood.
Once at the appointment they were having computer trouble and the wait was ridiculous! I wanted to puke. I'm now hungry and miserable. After being in the waiting room for 45mins we finally get to go back and get on with our appointment. I forgot how many times people congratulate you when your pregnant. I honestly felt like Miranda from Sex and the City faking my ultrasound. Everyone saying "congratulations! how exciting!" And I'm putting on my fake smile responding with "Yeah were pretty excited! Not planned but can't wait!" When I really was trying not to puke all over the person standing in front of me. (Remind you Adam and I havent said all but 3 words to each other since bedtime & this morning. Which doesn't help my mood.) Once seeing the baby though my mood lightened a little. It made me scared to have 2 kids, but I started accepting the idea and since we did find out the gender, I did start thinking of ideas in my head.
After my appointment I went home to my sleeping little boy. I tried to nap, but literally as I closed my eyes and started to drift off I heard Asher over the monitor. No nap for mommy. Yesterday was so beautiful out and I knew we could all use some fresh air. Including the dog. So that is was we did.
As I raked the leaves for Asher to jump into and heard his little giggles and that huge smile on his face I felt better. I am not the best mom, but I am not the worst mom. I can do this if I put my mind to it and don't let it wonder. Being outside in the warmth was what we all needed. Axel enjoyed playing ball. While Asher played in the leaves and his rock box with his trucks. And I just took a moment to catch my breath and take it all in. My mood did a 360 once we came back inside and thats what I needed. I needed to hit the reset button!
This was a hubby request! Both of us are enjoying these though! Easy to grab in the mornings. I love that I can make a bunch ahead of time and pull them out of the freezer when needed!
1 cup milk
salt & pepper
shredded cheddar jack
9 English muffins
1. Preheat oven to 375 degrees
2. Spray your 9x13 pan
3. In a medium bowl whisk together your eggs, milk, salt & pepper.
4. Pour mixture into 9x13 pan
5. I buy the"fully cooked" meats so this makes this step a lot easier! Cut up your sausage links and bacon.
6. On one side put all the bacon, ham in the middle, and sauage on the other end.
7. Sprinke cheese over the top
8. Bake for minutes
9. Once baked let sit to cool.
10. On a cookie sheet broil your English muffins until toasted
For packaging and storing:
Wrap the sandwich in a damp paper towel
Wrap that in wax paper
Place in a sandwich baggie
For reheating I will pull frozen ones out of the freezer and let them thaw over night in the fridge. Then microwave in morning for about 35 seconds!
Mom's of picky eaters, this is for you! Asher literally went on a 3 day strike of not wanting to eating. He had snacks here and there. He did not starve! I knew I had to do something to get this little boy to eat! I was meal prepping for my husband and I and I thought "why not try one of Asher's favorite meals." His favorite thing for breakfast is baked oatmeal. So that is what I made my little boy. Baked oatmeal breakfast muffins. 3 different flavors and you can freeze them!!
This is the base recipe. Once I made this I evenly distributed the mix between 3 bowls and then added my flavors.
3 cups old fashioned oats
2 teaspoons baking powder
1 teaspoon cinnamon
1/2 teaspoon salt
2 Bananas (Smashed)
1 cup milk
1/3 cup maple syrup
1/4 cup vegetable oil
2 teaspoons vanilla extract
1. Preheat oven to 350 degrees
2. Take 1 cup of the old fashioned oats and pour into a food processor. Pulse the oats until it is a flour consistency.
3. In a large bowl, whisk together the oats, oat flour, baking powder, cinnamon and salt.
4. In a medium bowl, whisk together the smashed bananas, eggs, milk, syrup, vegatable oil and vanilla extract.
5. Pour the wet ingredients into the dry ingredients and stir until combined.
6. Distribute the mix eventually between 3 bowls.
7. Add the flavors.
8. Bake for 25mins
Dark Chocolate Raspberry:
1/2 Cup raspberries
1/4 Cup dark chocolate chips
1/2 Cup blueberries
1/4 Cup slivered almonds
(Next time I probably wont add the almonds. I thought the piece were way to big and Asher had no interest.)
1/2 Cup peanut butter
squirt of jam on top
Before all the madness begins I wanted to wish everyone a Happy Thanksgiving!
This year I have taken a new approach to the holidays. I always want everything to be perfect and stress about everything being in its place and everything going the way I planned. This year I did plan, but honestly it's going to go how it goes. And you know what....that's okay! All that matters is that family is coming and the food will be ready when it's ready!
I am thankful for so many things! I really am blessed to have the family and friends that I do. Having Asher has changed me as a person but for the better. I absolutely love being Asher's mom. I am thankful for my husband who our little boy adores the most. Not only does he deal with my OCD ways on the daily, but he works fulltime and when he comes home he knows he is not done for the day. He jumps in to help with the crazy toddler wanted to be chased around the table and the never ending pile of dishes in the sink. I am thankful for all of the things that Adam & I have together. We are very fortunate and grateful for everything in our lives. I am thankful for my health and my family's health. I am thankful for our 3 year old chocolate lab who really knows how to get on our nerves, but then turns around and is so patient with Asher and is his best friend.
Wishing all of you a fabulous day with the ones you love, friends, and family!
I got this idea from my mom. She is always making these peanut butter banana smoothies and Asher loves them! I thought "what a great breakfast idea." I love making foods that I can make ahead and freeze. That is how I made up these frozen yogurt bites.
1/2 cup peanut butter
1 cup vanilla yogurt
I added all the ingredients in the blender and blend until smooth. I got this awesome silicone mini muffin tin at Bed Bath & Beyond. I then poured the mixture into my muffin tin and added a popsicle stick in the middle. That way once they are frozen Asher is able to hold it himself!
(I forgot the popsicle stick in this photo)
For about 3 weeks I felt very run down and my stomach just did not feel right. I would feel nauseous on and off. Finally I had enough and decided I need to make a doctors appointment. Something just was not right.
The night before my doctors appointment my husband and I had a talk. I said I highly doubt it could be that I'm pregnant, I just don't feel well. My husband agreed and said "I highly doubt pregnancy as well". Adam then says "but if you are I want us to be excited about another baby". I couldn't believe the words I was hearing out of his mouth. My husband, the one that only ever wanted 1 child. But now, now my husband is talking nonsense about being excited and how he always thought it would be cool to have a boy first and then a little girl. Someone replaced my husband that night.
The next day rolls around and I am ill. I can hardly get out of bed. I'm nauseous, and to top it off vomiting. As i'm laying on the bathroom floor just trying not to get sick again my sweet little boy comes over and starts rubbing my head. The light bulb clicked! I'm pregnant! I don't know for sure, but I will find out at my doctors appointment, which is in 4 hours. I couldn't wait I had to know now! I pulled myself up off the bathroom floor, rinsed my mouth, put on some sunglasses and off to the store I went.
Asher is beyond tired and ready for his morning nap when we arrive to Giant. AWESOME! Just great. My child is a screaming mess and I'm trying not to puke everywhere. As I get to the isle I need Asher has a complete melt down! Which then makes me start tearing up just thinking "OH MY GOSH I cannot be pregnant, I can not do this." Finally make it to check out and on the way home we go.
Once finally at home I lay Asher upstairs for his nap. He literally was out within 30 seconds. Poor fella was tired. I go downstairs to our half bath and get out my pregnancy test. In my head I'm saying "there is no way". Well you know how they say wait 3 minutes for results? HA! more like instant. There is was 2 pink lines. I immediately started bawling. We were so set on Asher being an only child. I never wanted to be pregnant again. It literally was my most nightmare that I would become pregnant again.
Still bawling my eyes out I snap a picture to my husband with the caption "this explains it all". Which proceeds by him calling me. Adam is beyond joyed..... So happy! (someone seriously replaced my husband). So that was that I am pregnant. I proceeded to my doctors appointment and asked her to confirm just in case it was a false positive. Which as I figured, it wasn't. I was still in fact pregnant. 7 weeks pregnant to be exact.
The next few days I struggled a lot. Not only with just being super sick, but with the fact that literally everything was about to change. My nightmare is now real life. Adam couldn't of been anymore supportive and super excited. For 3 days straight I had major panic attacks and doubted that I could go through another pregnancy and be a good mom.
We wanted to wait and announce it to my family over the weekend. I couldn't wait any longer. I needed my mom. I needed her to tell me everything was okay. I called my mom and told her I was not okay. One of the things my mom said to me was "Amber it's okay to have 2 kids. That is very common". "I wanted you to have a sibling". She was right! I was acting like your only suppose to have 1 child and that it is! I did always think it would be nice when Asher (and if he had any siblings) were older that they would come over for dinners and holidays. Also, not that I like to think about it but when Adam and I are gone Asher will now have someone and wont be alone.
Even at 26 I will admit I still need my mom. Since telling my mom a lot of my fears have vanished and I am able to be very excited to welcome this little bundle of joy! We have a lot of changes that will be taking place but I am trying to embrace them and make it all positive. I do not enjoy being as sick as I am, but I know it is all worth it in the end!
God has other plans for us and I need to sit back and enjoy the ride. Instead of trying to be in control of it.
We will be a family of 4 (5 including Axel :]) in June 2018
Today we made slime! It was very simple and kept Asher entertained for awhile. It was a great sensory activity. I let him use cookie cutters, rolling pin, and different containers and cups to play with his slime.
What I loved about this slime is that while Asher was playing on the kitchen floor with this, there was NO MESS. The food coloring stayed in the slime and not on my floor. Easy clean up! The slime stayed together nicely!
To Make Slime:
1 4oz white Elmer's school glue
1 TBSP baking soda
1TBSP contact solution
To start empty the bottle of Elmer's glue in a bowl. Add the baking soda and mix. Next add a few drops of food coloring and mix. Last add the contact solution and mix. If slime is not forming and the mixture is still sticky add more contact solution until desired consistency.
My bestie and I are at it again with the holiday crafts! For Thanksgiving we made turkeys with the kiddos! They really are troopers. Both our kids don't care to be messy and honestly they both rather be on the go then having to sit still. After a few hand prints Asher got the idea of what was going on and started helping us and enjoyed putting his messy hand on the paper!
What you will need:
First we painted the canvas's and let them dry.
We did all the hand prints and foot prints on paper and let them dry.
We then cut out all the prints and arranged them on the canvas.
We used hot glue to secure them.
Then added the extra details with puffy paint!
My child is a very picky eater. One week he loves Mac n Cheese. The next he wants nothing to do with it. I usually cook 3 to 4 times a week. It all depends on my work schedule. Some weeks I don't get a lot of cooking in and feel like I don't know what to feed Asher. Here are 3 quick and easy foods I made last week!
Cinnamon sugar PB&J:
2 Slices of bread
Butter your bread. Place cinnamon sugar mixture on the buttered side of the bread. Place bread in the toaster oven until lightly browned. Remove from toaster oven and add your peanut butter and jelly.
1 can of crescent rolls
cheese hot dogs
Cover a hot dog with crescent roll. Then cut into pieces. Place on baking sheet. Bake at 350 for about 8mins or until crescent roll is lightly browned.
Pizza roll ups:
1 can of crescent rolls
Unroll crescent dough. place pizza sauce and mozzarella cheese on top. Roll the crescent dough up. Cut into section. Place on baking sheet. Bake 350 for about 8 mins of until crescent dough is lightly browned.
Unfortunately I didn't take pictures =[ The next time I make these I will add pictures to this post!
Momma of 2